The feeling she felt in his arms was all she now remembered. The feeling of safety and happiness was all that filled her heart. She realised his impact on her to late, when he was already gone. He made her feel more confident than she had ever felt, he was the one that opened her heart, even if it was just by an inch. After him she had searched to find these feelings with another man, but it hasn’t been possible. She’s never able to trust them, the way she trusted him. If only she hadn’t been too scared to surrender herself to him. If she could have opened up, allowed herself to love him, they probably would still be together. Now she never felt anything but sadness in the arms of men, a few moments of pleasure and then pure disappointment, now she´s close to just giving up. She’s stuck in the past, in the arms of the man she treated so horrible, she need to move on, but is unable because of all the unsolved issues between them. She had always dreamt of the perfect man and house with a stable and two kids running around in the backyard, but now there was no man good enough to fulfill these wishes in her head. Only one, and he was forever lost.