It was suppose to be fun

It was a party
But it wasn’t fun
All those people
All I felt was loneliness

Being left behind
Is never fun
Expecially when you know no one
All alone among hundreds
All alone among people
People I should have known
People who should have known me

I hate crowds
Why did I go?
It was suppose to be fun
But, instead it made me cry
My old world has disowned me
I never really cared though
Until tonight

All those “friends”
I should have known
They couldn’t even see me
I hate being ignored
I hate when people I know
Don’t know me
Don’t recognise me

Here I am, hurt
Alone in someone’s elses home
I hate this
I never really belonged
But, I wish that I could have
At least just for tonight

I am sitting here alone in my friends house. We were at a party in my home town, and I was a complete stranger. Alone among hundreds, I felt so unwanted and lonely. I will never put myself in that situation again. It makes me feel like shit.. and I’m not fond of that.

My friend and her boyfriend stayed. I told them to, I couldn’t ruin their evening also. So, her mom drove me home. Just like in the good old days.. I was always the one leaving early, I have never been a fan of many people. And especially the ones from my  home town.. sometimes it just could  have been nice to fit in.. but, I guess that it just wasn’t suppose to be.

It was all probably for the best, most of the people such anyway 😉


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One Response to It was suppose to be fun

  1. Starstone says:

    just came across this one… Its pretty cool, in a clumsy Danish way…

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